Been feeling a little disjointed and floaty the last couple of days. As if someone had put a warm blanket over some part of my mind, muffling the usual hubbub. It’s *horrible* feels like stupor; a terrible serenity…
“The mind is divided, like a rider on an elephant, and the rider’s job is to serve the elephant. The rider is our conscious reasoning—the stream of words and images of which we are fully aware. The elephant is the other 99 percent of mental processes—the ones that occur outside of awareness but that actually govern most of our behavior.”
— Jonathan Haidt, ref. in The Knowns and the Unknowns by John Gray (The New Republic)
In summary, someone or something has sedated my elephant!
Lying in bed last night drinking a mug of herb tea, one that we’d started drinking a few days earlier, i started looking up the ingredients Zitronenmelisse, Johanniskraut, Johannisbeerblätter, Lavendel, Thymian. You can probably guess most of those, lemon balm, raspberry leaves, lavender, thyme… but, Johanniskraut, Johann’s herb, what’s that? That, it turns out, is St. John’s Wart.
The most common adverse effects reported are gastrointestinal symptoms, dizziness, confusion, tiredness and sedation.
This isn’t the first time that i’ve tried taking it, and i’m pretty sure it had similar effects. It’s always difficult to separate the effect from the placebo, but in this case it was a pretty blind test. Maybe i should try it again the next time the black dog gets the upper hand… at worst i’d just sleep it off in a serene stupor.
For now the elephant shall be taken to fresher watering holes. Missing my mind.